Jesus and me

June 5th, 2008

Jesus, I want to put all of my petitions and thoughts and worries with you, you said you’d take them from me any time I’d ask and that you’d help me through them. I know that without you I am not much, and I need to trust that with you and your guidance I can do anything, and I don’t have to feel limited or constrained by my burdens of the past, that you’ve set me free from them and that it’s all going to be ok. Thank you that you’ve supplied what you have, and that I know that you’ve done so for a reason and so there must be a way for me to learn. You haven’t left me comfortless, you’ve opened doors for me and ways to walk so I know that I can trust that you will help all the stepping stones to get there to be found too, that I can make the progress with My French that you know that I need to make, and that I can have what I need and who I need to help me to learn, and to learn quicker and better and to remember and to comprehend. I know that you are going to help me through this, and to keep it challenging and fun, and something that I can build on and that will be a bridge for me to pass to where I want to go next.

I know I need to trust you, and that I can’t do it all on my own. Thank you for giving me what you have and guiding me in the way you have to that I can speak fluently, that I can learn it brilliantly. Give me patience lord, give me faith, give me wisdom to know when to push myself and when to simply not waste the moments that I have but to enjoy life. Help me to be wise in other ways too, and to make the best use and management of my time, so that I don’t have to feel that I’ve wasted, or that I’m getting nowhere but that everything is a step and that it’s all leading towards a bigger picture.

I love you Jesus.


October  5th 2008

Jesus, I’m sorry for all of the times that I’ve failed you. But I do want to do something for you.

I don’t want to be so stuck on accomplishments, to never take the time for people.

There is so much that I want to learn and do. I never took a stand of my own, and said, this is the life I want, I am going to fight to keep it. Lord, give me the faith to believe that I can do it. To believe that I can find a place, and stick to it, and find a calling and something that I can do.

I don’t have to wait for the circumstances to be perfect all around me for me to do what I want to

do. There are all kinds of things going on, and all kinds of people around with all kinds of opinions

of what I should and shouldn’t be doing with my life. It's so easy to let things slip and slide, and

to forget what is important, and what will look good to the world.

The kind of things that I want, and like, and am willing to do…

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The Lord works from the inside out, The world works from the outside in. Le Seigneur travaille de l'intérieur, le monde de l'extérieur.

The world would take people out of the slums. Christ takes the slums out of people, and then they take themselves out of the slums. Le monde aimerait faire sortir les gens des bidonvilles. Le Christ fait sortir les bidonvilles des gens.

The world would mold men by changing their environment. Christ changes men, who then change their environment.

Le monde voudrait former les hommes en changeant leur environnement. Le Christ change les hommes, qui alors changent leur environnement.

The world would shape human behavior, but Christ can change human nature.—Ezra Taft Benson

Le monde voudrait former le comportement humain, mais le Christ change la nature humaine.

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There are keys of time management, and when you call on them, they will help you to be more realistic and disciplined in your estimations and plans, so that you can follow through and fulfill My will without rush or stress or being late.

May 09

Give and it shall be given unto you. The more you give, Natalie, the more you will receive of Me! I love you more than world and words can ever say or know. You are going to have a good life. I love you!

Hi My Love. I have so much in store for you, and the ways that you can serve Me are endless. There are endless possibilities and there are endless opportunities to choose from. The gift of choice is yours, and I’m not going to tell you to do this or to do that, because I want to see what you will choose, and if it will be the right choice for your life. I can lead you, and I can guide you, and can I tell you what? If your heart is right with Me, and if you are seeking Me in all things, then there is no wrong choice for you! I will love you anyways, no matter what you choose, but I will be especially happy when every choice that you make is made based on how you think it will make Me feel, and how it relates to your mission of serving Me! That should be your personal goal, to make every choice based on what I might want you to do. For that is the way to find true fulfilment and happiness, for I give you free choice, and yet, you must choose between the things that are good and right, and you must choose to do those things that will profit Me, and profit you, and profit My kingdom, and in turn help others. For that is the greatest calling of life.

There are many different things to think about, and I can promise you this: There are surprises with Me. You may never know the new ideas the new plans the changes that I want you to help bring about until the time comes when I want them enacted, so stay close to Me, and don’t forget that the method is just that: a method, to bring more people closer to Me and to fulfil your basic mission on this earth. All may change very suddenly. That is just how life is. But if you can remember that all things change but Me, it will give you peace that this is a solid profession that you are embarking upon, and that serving Me, no matter where or in what ways or in which group you choose to do it, it is still serving Me if that is where your heart lies. Remember that as you go through life, and find some things more discouraging than others, and even when you feel that what you are doing doesn’t further My cause at all. If your heart is right with Me, and you still really desire to serve Me, I will help you to find a way. It takes patience, and it takes faith to fulfil the plans that I have for you, but great are the rewards of following Me regardless of the costs!



Sept 09

Jesus I love you! You take such awesome wonderful care for me, and I cannot imagine life without you. I’m excited by the  new twists my life is taking but I want you to be with me through every part of my life’s journey. I don’t want to do something that is against your will, or that goes against your plan for me and for my life. I love you Jesus, and I want you to show me which is the best road for me to take right now. I don’t want to make a decision that you don’t want me to, and neither do I want to push my own way so much that there is no room for You.

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Praise isn’t how you feel about the situation, it’s how you feel about Me.

You’re glorifying Me, telling Me that despite this situation, you know I’m still there and that everything is going to be okay.

Practice becoming giants of faith and praise by never letting anything shake your confidence in Me. When you praise, you’re moving Heaven to action on your behalf. Praising Me for My love and wisdom and plan in even the darkest time will build this faith.

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2010--Jesus you're awesome! I won a discus award--the first of many scholarships to come.

“You don’t have to do it call on the power of the keys of the desire to do my will and I will do it through you.”

When we do what God tells us to do, it always works out!

Quality Word time is not monotonous. On the contrary, quality Word time is seeking Me to find out what you need for that moment and that day, and then doing it and experiencing it in order to get the infilling and feeding that you truly need. If your Word time is the “same old same old” day in and day out, chances are it’s not quality, because it’s not what your spirit needs. Why is that? Because the needs of your spirit change. If you’re going to truly meet those needs, you have to be willing to ask Me, and then to do different things, in order to help your spirit get what it needs from Me.

I’m moving you past the duty of fulfilling the requirements because they are required, and into fulfilling them because you know that you require that time with Me.

No matter how little or how much you already have memorized, it's vital that you stretch your Word memory banks and get them ac­tive and online so that I can mainline My power through you when the time comes.

Jesus and me--Dec. 2005